Attention m/m #MassEffect fans: "Pillowtalk" is my open-ended #fanfic of raunchy #mshenko (M!Shep/Kaidan) content.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/14165781/chapters/32651679
sexual imagery, cannibalism, pork
fatphobia
It is one year since I got my 2nd COVID shot. Which means it's one year since I went to Moscone Center and the security lady took one look at me, as I approached the stairs down to the main vaccination area, and pointed at the line for the elderly and disabled.
I'm autistic, so I have rightly no idea how her smile was intended. But it read to me as "Hey, fatty, you don't need to use the stairs, go through that line and save your knees. Oh lord, fatties thinking that they're people!"
One of the weird things about 4ch/kf/etc use of the word "degenerate" to refer to queer people is how it resurrects a nineteenth century theory that homosexuality and gender variance reflected an erosion in quality of the gene pool. By the 1920s US military psychologists shifted, and "often understood sexual perversion not as a kind of biological atavism but as one of the most common markers of a psychopathic personality" (Canaday, 2009). And yet the trope remains today, reinvigorated!
"During the trial of two men who were court -martialed for forcibly sodomizing a private, for instance, it came out that in the past, the victim had laid on a bunk with the two men, and 'They used to call me their boy and once in a while I would call them daddy.'"
Wait okay the forcible sodomy part of this is bad but hang on: is this documentation of Daddy/boy poly relationships in 1921?
COVID
My roommate just tested positive for COVID.
He's been out sick from work for 3 days but the tests weren't coming up positive until today. I've had the windows open and the central HVAC fan on all this time, and I bought a HEPA air purifier on Amazon right away on the assumption that he had 'Rona.
So I'm not just lying down and assuming that I can't avoid catching it.
But my odds have never been higher.
masturbation, work stress, el Goog, CSA
For reference, I was molested by a stepdad who frequently threatened to beat me, and working at Google was pretty close to par with that. The stepdad fucked with my self-esteem more, but Google made me more actively suicidal.
masturbation, work stress, el Goog
The fact that I am once again capable of experiencing post-orgasmic boneless bliss when I jerk off suggests to me that my testosterone levels may be returning to normal after a very long absence.
I think my low T was caused by stress. The level of stress I was under as an SRE at Google and as a DevProd engineer at Fitbit was so deep that it's hard to convey.